I have written before about suffering from Anxiety. It’s not something I’ve often done, because I don’t want to come across as self-indulgent or over-intimate, in what is a public, detached forum. And there are other risks too. On the whole, I decided it was something best not shared with strangers online.
I make occasional exceptions, and this is one of them. I’m getting better. I’ve been slowly improving since the summer of 2009, and rapidly improving since the autumn of 2010. I started Gestalt therapy, a form of CBT, last year, and recently started practicing Mindfulness. These two treatments, along with other smaller changes, have had a noticeable effect. Sometimes I have days where life seems as bad as it ever was. But these are occasional blips, and it’s impossible to deny I am gradually getting better.
I have assumed for a long time that I have been suffering from Anxiety. However, events in recent weeks have shown that I might actually have been suffering from Depression, which ironically makes me a little happier as I find it easier to understand, and can see ways out of it more clearly.
Whatever it is, I’ve been suffering with it since the summer of 2007, and possibly longer. A friend of mine told me he thinks I’ve been in and out of it for years before that. That’s a lot of my life, so I’m happy that things are finally improving, and I hope it continues.
It looks like it will.